Appointment #2

I don't particularly like my therapist but I think she will be good for me.

She doesn't seem very kind and doesn't express a great deal of empathy. She sticks to the task at hand, asks me for few, specific details about my feelings in certain situations and goes on to show me what cbt techniques to use for following week. At first I thought that her unemotional, professional manner would bother me and make seeing her pointless. But it might be exactly what I need.

At times I miss my old psychiatrist. I miss having someone to blabber on and on to about how I am feeling, what is upsetting and frustrating me and how people don't understand. I miss having my thoughts and feelings validated.

But I don't need a shoulder to cry on, someone to sit and passively listening to my sorrows. I need to someone to help me feel better. And she just might. Even if she is only really supervising me while I use Mind Over Mood as a tool to help myself, maybe all I really need is a "coach" to keep me motivated and reassure me that doing this therapy is important.

And if it doesn't help, I will find someone else to talk to.