It hurts

Dad says,

So he's not working at all?
So why doesn't he just try to find something else?
Can't he at least get a low stress job?
So he's just going to live off his parents?
It's not like he's a kid anymore.
It just doesn't seem fair to you.
You shouldn't have to deal with his stuff on top of your own.
I don't know what you'll do if neither of you can work.
I hope you're saving some of your money (from tutoring).
I hope you're not trying to support two people.

I hate the situation. It is awful and painful and sucks.
But what does he expect me to do? Never see him because of money issues? Stop being with him because we're both sick and therefore should be denied the opportunity to have a loving, supportive realtionship?

Now I feel like I can't breathe.

P.S. my therapist at CAMH is some student and will likely treat me as a textbook case, in a straightforward manner with little emotion. Perfect.